Save

As much as you like to think so, you cannot save every stray animal, wandering soul, sick person, the planet and the Universe, so you may as well take a little time and save yourself. Words of wisdom from a dear friend. Truth ringing in my ears, but not quite convincing me to stop and smell the flowers; and yes I get the irony.
I should probably post this as well to Beacons blog, because it is he who has me thinking this early a.m. He could not sleep. Up and down all night. Nudging me to rub his head, cuddle with him, only to have him dart off the edge of the bed and to the door.  Finally I gave in and let him go. Out the door and down the steps, like a dash, on his two front legs. This is only happening because I too am up. Otherwise he would realize that he was alone in the dark, and it would begin, an unending cry of epic proportions. Unending until I walk down the stairs, grab him in my arms and take him back to bed. This could go on many times throughout a night. When he is restless I am restless. So here we are.
Beacon is two years old this month, and looking back over our journey so far, I can say that I have become an expert at reading him. He goes through cycles which are primarily based on his body's digestive tract, and his ability to utilize food and process waste.
Later today he will be out like a light. Most days he is like this. The stress of getting around, the energy expended is much more noticeable now that he is fully grown. Yet that doesn't stop him when he is on a roll. He, can out maneuver all of the other cats, out run them and out fox them. The only thing he can't do is jump. So he has learned to pull himself up on furniture, maneuver onto table tops and on some occasions, get stuck, scaring the crap out of me. Which prompts me to make the rounds throughout the day, looking for him, making sure he is safe.
In all honesty, I do not believe that I can save the world, or myself. At least not in a way that would be efficient. I do feel however that I am saved. Not in a religious way, but in a way that allows me to be at ease in the world. For as much as I may seem restless, I am very much at peace with life. Adhering to the Tao Pooh philosophy I focus my attention to the present moment. Always observant, always taking it all in. It is amazing how much we are able to understand through calm and silence. Amazing how easy it is to let go. Knowing that the extraneous things that define me today, I can walk away from at any moment and be complete. Knowing that blood is thicker than water, and that beating hearts trump everything else.

Ginger

Today I moved Ginger to her new kitty condo in the living room. Out in the general population. So far she is doing well and I am hopeful that she will eventually become more social. I hated breaking up the duo of Ginger and her sister Sophie. Ginger has always been the most anti-social of the two, so I wanted to start with her first. Ginger has a few issues. Strabismus with a slight involuntary nodding of her head. The head nodding is more recent but the eyes have always been crossed inward. This is common with some pure breeds, and the option is  to sometimes surgically correct it.  I am going to wait until she is a bit more stable before we consider another surgery. They were both recently spayed. Not the easiest thing in the world to catch a couple of feral cats and take them to the vet, but we manage, plus we have an amazing vet who is wonderful with animals. Now that she is out in the open, I can begin to spend more close up time with her. I am not sure if she will ever be tame enough to initiate friendliness on her own, but at least we are beginning the process to find out. Without the luxury of being able to run under something to hide, she will have to open up and make some adjustments. I moved a small table to the side of her kitty condo and placed a pillow on top. Miss Anniebelle has been laying there next to Ginger on the other side. If anything it is a great start. I am sure (most of) the other cats will welcome her if she gives them a chance. Contrary to what one might think, Cats can be very loving and are generally quite democratic. Particularly those of the spay and neutered variety. Nothing snooty about them, really...